Who is a “Good Boy Billionaire”?

8/10/20

I started watching Netflix’s “Bad boy Billionaires” and the first episode I chose to see was of Sahara Sree Subroto Roy, it was a yawn affair. Netflix specially chooses to vilify famous Indians, some of the other examples are Osho and Yoga guru Bikram. It’s hard to understand that who is that so called “Good Boy billionaire”? I mean if you could earn money by being good, Mahatma Gandhi wouldn’t have to be printed on notes after being shot by Nathuram.

I mean vilify Osho and Yoga guru Bikram by all means, what do I care, but compare it to other personalities it chooses to make documentaries against and you would find that they are the likes of Ted Bundy.

Except from the 1900s, I automatically suppose the white people who show interest in India to be white trash. I don’t mean it in a diplomatic or ' genuine cultural interest ' sense, what I am talking about are the likes of Audrey Truschke, so called “Historian” specialising in India who refuses to acknowledge or indulge when presented with valid arguments or genuine queries.

People can be genuinely posh, and I know a few people like that. I am not posh and I thank God for that. Coming to the above mentioned documentary, I really fail to understand how can a posh, and not a good posh but a lutyen’s trash posh and a white trash can understand man who worked from ground to build an empire to ultimately land in jail. Well, Kaveree Bamzai can understand the psychology of Sahara Sree, and that he has a God complex. How can you understand if someone has God complex without having it yourself? And that man worked from ground to up, whatever he did. Even Ganesh Gaitonde had God complex but atleast he took it on himself instead of vilifying others.

Anything can happen so I don’t deny the possibility that there can be a “Good Boy billionaire”, it’s just too difficult, and Saharasree had all the reasons of being proud of himself, even if that doesn’t absolve him of his crimes. Good or bad, billionaires are billionaires, and they can crush people like ants if they want. Meanwhile we can just appreciate Dan Bilzerian for keeping it real jk.

Eating Apples At Kufri and Sex and Intimacy

8/10/20

I can say that I’m not a Kafir in the sense that I do believe in a Supreme Power but then I also believe in Murtipuja and my Devtas and Kuldevi and Devtas, so that does make me a Kafir in at least one religion. I also don’t take parts in rituals much because of my health but that doesn’t mean I don’t believe in them. I think if God wants to punish me, He/She/It will and I really can’t complain. I have tried to be by the book, except for some things and also haven’t been very fond of being alive since a long time now. I think He/She/It, would already know me and with the experiences I have had, the “things” that have been troubling me don’t seem like God.

I am fond of sex, but only for the purposes of humour (jokes etc.) and when I was younger, poetry. With my age now, I don’t think I am interested in it anymore and I doubt any lassie can honey-trap me as I have been before.

What matters to me is intimacy, and not being a fountainhead. Pleasure just like morphine is a substitute to drown pain, and this is what I have experienced in my life. I needed someone and I couldn’t get that person and I don’t complain because the people I met were awesome even though I trash-talk about them sometimes. I did not need a Havaldar Shinde, I needed someone who would know that we are alone in this world together.

It was a walk of shame in here, and then what we call in Hindi a 'Nanga Naach’. I mean what can you do if you try your level best but still have to drink a Monster Energy Drink, or maybe sometimes a Red Bull. I have read a lot of “good things” too but what can you do when your head doesn’t play the videotapes of your heart but something else altogether, the morphine, ahem. I think Param Padm (or if it is something else) could do with a little understanding of sarcasm.

A Personal Take On God

As we grow up we may start to question the world, the more adaptive ones may not but the idealistic ones who have been brought up in a certain way may do that. I have seen sickness on a personal level and it made me more empathetic as a doctor and as a person but it also opened my eyes to the amount of suffering in the world. The society says that there is a God, and yet when we see the world in its full scope He or She is nowhere to be seen. I know God is a personal matter. Religion is not only opiate of the masses as Marx said, it can also be a medium of personal fulfillment, like many things in the world it also has two sides to it. It can be a control mechanism for masses for the administration and the elite, but it is also the medium through which the common man experiences spirituality. Faith heals, and it has been proven more than often in human experience and religion does the same, it provides faith to the common man. Praying is a form of meditation that allows us to connect to a higher consciousness, connect to something much higher and bigger than ourselves. Personally, I lost my faith in God after my suffering, actually not, the real reason was my sickness opening my eyes to the amount of suffering in the world. It's hard to believe in what I call "the societal God" after that. Believers may say that my faith or belief was weak and I accept that, but I have never been a proponent of blind belief and I think my father being a scientist has something to do with that. My personal belief however is that of a Charvaka, but it is not bounded by strict rules of this philosophy, I also believe in Purusha and Prakriti, and the concept of Shiva and Shakti, the masculine and the feminine and mother goddesses because I think a mother's love is the purest form of energy that there is. I feel that when a faithful person loses faith he searches for it and that's what happened with me. One can believe in a Supreme Being, Parameshwara or God, but often people just believe in Him or Her because they are afraid, which is not a bad thing, one needs faith for emotional support. It's just that our belief of God is way too narcissistic. Just watch Animal Planet and you'd realise that a deer who eats grass and is benign is hunted by a lion. In human society too this analogy can be seen. I would like to believe in the "societal god" but I just don't have enough evidence for it. What I have is evidence for energy, in different forms, an energy that tries to preserve itself, in nature and in humanity. A deer tries to save itself, the lion tries to save itself from hunger, the body tries to save itself from diseases and trauma. As humans we have energy states, I tend to believe gods and goddesses of Indian mythology as energy states too. For example, the Goddess Kali is an energy state of motherly love and wrath, Lord Ram is an energy state of idealism and duty. In homeopathy there is a concept of miasms, the fundamental cause of disease, it portrays three states, disruption in function, creation or accumulation and destruction, although pathological in nature, the concept bears a striking similarity with the Indic trinity of Vishnu, Brahma and Shiva, energy states of function, creation and destruction. I personally don't think that God will tell us how to bathe and what clothes we should wear but then tradition, culture and rituals are also important things. A society should preserve its culture, traditions and rituals and thus these things become important. 

I am a scientific minded individual, and so evidence matters to me. But I also know that science is an ongoing process and it will always be an ongoing process. I may go to hell for not believing in the "societal god" but I can take that risk for the sake of truth and science. I don't like going to temples much but there are some places that provide me peace, like the Golden Temple in Amritsar and old South Indian temples, especially in Tamil Nadu. When I say to others "bhagwan/uparwale pe bharosa rakhiye”, I mean the preserving energy that I believe in and hope that uparwala really exists. Despite the philosophy I have spouted above, I am a simple work hard and party hard kind of a person who doesn't think about God much. What I know though, is that truth and love are godly qualities and they have the capacity to elevate us. 

Ted Bundy, Hitler, Shakuntala Devi, Osho and Whirlpool and Bosch Washing Machines

5/10/20

Once outside a building a man was approached and asked “do you want to climb your way to success?”, He said, “Of course.” “Here”, the man showed him the way. He kept climbing the stairs and met a man standing quietly and asked, “Success?”, the man pointed upwards, so our Hero kept on climbing the stairs and then reached at the top where a man was sitting naked on a sofa, who looked at him, smiled and said, “Hi! My name is Cess!”

Washing is an important human activity, and with arrival of machines it has become an important machine activity. Surf Excel can tell you “daag achche hain”, and you can play all the Holi you want, but it doesn’t tell you that there is also the risk of airing your dirty laundry in public.

Indians generally are like that, “Main chhat par kapde utarne ja raha/rahi hun”. Anyway, Shakespeare said “what’s in a name?” Well, it can give you a free ticket to laundry.

Also, before the washing don’t forget to check the barcode on your jeans. Also, wash the whites and the coloured clothes seperately.

Imagine if I am in the silicon valley, designing an intelligent software for laundry services, how would I do it? Questions are many.

Anyhow, dirty jeans are trademark of cowboys. Robocop, Terminator or Taxi Driver? Hannibal Lector? Many celebrities avail these laundry services.

Until a few years ago, “masturbation was normal”, and if you stain your pants, don’t forget to use Bosch washing machine. If the stain is of petrol or diesel then Whirlpool will help.

If you are into Hitler jokes, then God save you, because no one messes with Zohan, whilst Dharmic Swastikas make you feel like you are playing Wolfstein 3D.

Also, anything can be used as Jaal “The Trap”. Even this nonsense which I have written. Don’t blame me if you start feeling like Osho, Hitler, Ted Bundy or if God is kind, Shakuntala Devi.

Is it a crime to be poor and good, and have “diabeetus” or “jaundice”? according to Whirlpool and Bosch, “Yes sir, it probably is!”

PS. Don’t forget to wear your Zivame lingerie because you can’t afford Victoria’s Secret.

The Indian Muslim and The Shaheen Baaghis

5/10/20

I have grown up around a lot of Muslims. Growing up in a Muslim majority town, a lot of my childhood friends were/are Muslims.

When you belong to a particular culture, you are bound to have affinity towards similar culture. Islamic culture has a homogeneity which is visible throughout the world. Many Indian Muslims in India have a soft spot for Pakistan which is visible, and which is definitely not a bad thing as India and present day Pakistan have more or less the same culture. The issue arises when you break your television during an India Pakistan match after India defeats Pakistan, whilst you are a citizen of India.

I won’t say these people are few in number. There is a considerable amount in India and I know that. Both, because of shared culture and the idea of Islamic brotherhood. The systemic oppression also doesn’t help the case either but in case of Islam, I personally don’t think that systemic oppression is a major factor because of the strong network it has. Yes, people are cannon fodder, but so is the case with the lower strata in any society.

There are many types of Muslims in India, ones who are practicing Al Taqqiya, ones who are actually waging Jihad(specifically political Islamic) of some kind, be it literary, military or any other kind, ones who were normal but actually got radicalized due to systemic oppression, and with contact of the previous two mentioned, and then there are the last three kinds, normal Indians, the Indians who have to overcompensate for the first three and the cannon fodder.

Now for the first three kinds of Muslims living in India let me be blunt here. You should have gone to Pakistan and if not you can still go there. India was divided on the lines of religion so it very natural that it will leave a scar on the heart of Indians. You can act all student leader, liberal or communist, but you can’t hide. Also, the protectors of Muslim law in India, what kind of personal Muslim law you want in a democratic country? And if you want a personal law, are you ready to get punishment for crimes according to Sharia? Only Ghazwa-E-Hind you are going to get is Gajwa-E-Hind, that is Lord Ganesha, who belongs to all. Also, Pakistani music is actually nice.

The Curious Case of Khushwant Singh and Taslima Nasreen

3/10/20

I have been angry at people I love, some times friends, sometimes family and sometimes teachers. I have been angry at God too, because as much as I am thankful for a comparatively easy life, I can’t deny the terrible suffering I have undergone in my life.

I have faith, and I like to take refuge in God in tough times, mostly in form of Mother Goddesses or Vedic Parameshwar or in general as we call him Bhagwan or God. I also like the concepts of Buddhism, Jainism and Sikhism because they teach us to be kind to others. Given the circumstances of my life and how I landed in the soup while trying to avoid it also gives a hint of fatalism. Bhagya aur Kismat they say. I remember Lord Hanuman when I am afraid, and when I am having fun, I try to forget God, because it gets too sanskari.

I like to follow the law of the land, because one must follow it, although it is not possible always and depends on the circumstances but as long as you don’t have a criminal intent while breaking the law and are ready to accept the punishment for it, I guess it should be fine.

I’m not a fan of Islam as a religion, although I have nothing against the idea of 'devotion to God' which I suppose is the literal meaning of the term. I have, despite being angry at God in my life, have always tried to do the right thing according to my intelligence and health, it maybe enough, it may not be enough, if God is there, He/She/It will decide.

The jobs which are thought as lowly, such as sanitation jobs, I personally don’t consider them as such. If someone would make me feel bad about it, I don’t think I will feel bad about it. The only issue I face is the sociological issue and health issues, which are personal. In olden times it may have been a punishment, in military, ofcourse it is a punishment, but in civil life in the year 2020, if someone is cleaning your shit, it is you who should be ashamed, not them.

Hindus and Christians cleaning sewers in Pakistan and Pakistanis doing similar jobs in the Arabian countries. That’s how it works I guess. In India, Valmiki wrote Ramayana, and the Valmikis clean your city. Bheem broke the thigh of Duryodhana, and the SC/STs or Harijans as Gandhi ji called them are actively involved in politics, although the so called “Bheem” politics looks more revenge driven fuelled by personal experiences of societal oppression than driven by the greater good of the “Bheem” community and the Nation.

Khushwant Singh wrote train to Pakistan, because his home was in present day Pakistan. Taslima Nasreen had to come to India because among other things, she called herself an atheist, which I don’t think any physician or person with a scientific head could call themselves with utmost surety, more often than not, it is a political stand. I shouldn’t have to tell you what two factors are common in the cases of both these people.

Nationalism and God

2/10/20

India has always believed in 'Vasudhaiva Kutumbkam’, meaning the whole world is a family. La ilaha Ill Allah means there is no God but Allah. Judaism has so many names for God, and one of them is Ilahi. Allah is an Arabian word for God, in the Vedas we have Parameshwar, and we also have dieties and Devtas and Devis.

Only kind of nationalism I personally believe in is cultural nationalism, that too when the culture keeps evolving with time and with the needs of the society.

I don’t think it is right or ethical to impose ones own culture on others by force, by coercion or by insidious methods.

I am a non-practicing Hindu because I believe in research, but that doesn’t mean that I have disregard for cultural practices of any religion.

As much as my health permits I take part in the customs and cultural practices myself, but in a rapidly evolving world striking a balance is the key to a better life.

I find other cultures fascinating, I like to see how people from other cultures look at the cultures which are different from them. India has been a pluralistic country, and it has accepted others whole-heartedly. We have this Ganga-Jamuni tehzeeb especially in the Avadh region, but some people in the garb of Ganga-Jamuni tehzeeb keep trying to radicalize people. They forget that even Jamuna is a tributary of Ganga itself.