Write Concepts #26

I think long and hard about the kind of things that I want to write about. It's hard to be able to hit the spot in this political economy in the things you want to write about. My writing style if I talk about modern writers, as far as I have seen, is close to China Mieville and Caitlin R. Kiernan which is too much to ask in the modern Indian economy. Writing is anyway redundant and indigenous myth-making has collapsed. There are some comic book hobbyist trying to make collections of old Indian comics on Facebook but I don't think it is going to last long. You go on Facebook and find a lot of comic book readers who used to read comics in Hindi can't even express themselves properly even in Hindi, survival does that to you. I wanted to experiment with mythofiction, yes, like Kalki 2898 AD, but then I ended up realising the base of the polity is rape and mythology, mythofiction and rape don't go together, though the itch of mythofiction might end up making me write a bit of mythofiction short stories. My favourite superheroes are John Constantine and The Punisher, though I like all the superheroes, each one of them, but comics in India is dead by now and the way this country is going it doesn't matter if it's dead. I have found the singularity in the genres I want to write about though I have realised by now that good never wins and although one can make-believe if one is privileged enough, this make-believe is not for everyone. Books have anyway stopped coming out mostly and now cheesy romances are also useless because the way this country is evolving one has to get license for romance and anyway there is no romance without dignity. What is left are privileged rich housewives pumping books that have that elaborate privileged struggle, and don't get me wrong any struggle is struggle it's just not my thing, and poverty porn. I am glad that comics are dead, it is one of my favourite mediums of storytelling and it's great that they are dead in this shithole of a country. And anyway they are so expensive that very few people can afford them, yes, even the indigenous ones. The only true entertainment this country deserves is that in which there is a bhabhi waiting for you 2 kms away. Helps in sleeping good. Isn't it? 

Bread and Butter

I have no idea how deep states of other regions operate but I have idea about Purvanchal, and although the regions are connected modus operandi changes depends upon the cultural machine. Purvanchal deep state uses a method which I call breadcrumbing, though it is different from the popular breadcrumbing. In this version of breadcrumbing people are made to transgress their conscience or do things throughout their lives so that they can be exploited or blackmailed on the basis of them. There is also perpetual gaslighting where you have a vague feeling of having done something wrong but what wrong you have done is never disclosed and you are perpetually made to feel guilty on small things and then that guilt is exploited. Guilt-tripping, gaslighting, intimidation, blackmail, victim blaming, blame shifting and credit stealing are rampant and done at a very intimate level where most people think that God resides. Most people aren't even aware that there is a mode of existence, a level of existence beyond this level too because that requires knowing oneself thoroughly and self-knowledge only comes through knowledge and awareness and watching oneself closely and the saddest thing of it all is that the process of knowing oneself can be sabotaged too so that what one knows as their self might not be their self at all. In the past decade I have realised that Purvanchal at the psychological plane is mafia dictatorship with rape as its core and the deep state of this country is essentially a criminal syndicate with a layer of religion, culture and administration. What I witnessed is impunity, doing anything to anyone and this turns into that person's fate. Here is the deal, however good you are, however talented you are, if a person having a status of not more than a rickshawala has access and control to your life, mind and body everything becomes redundant. Dignity is hard to come by in that situation because the top weaponises criminals and rapists of genocidal intent towards the middle and lower classes and they always play on the offensive and they are careless about lives of people because as I have seen it, they don't have any consideration about lives of people. People are made to carry the delusions and cognitive dissonances of these motherfuckers. The setup of the deep state is inverted, instead of good people knowing how criminals function it's criminals knowing how good people function and their lives are casually interfered with and conspiracies are hatched. The most unfortunate part is that these bastards entitled as well as incompetent and only permanent residents of the land people live in are their daddies while everyone else is a tenant meant to be exploited. The setup itself is of exploitation, rape, manipulation, social engineering and eugenics. And the level things happen to people at is the level of existence people are aware about there is only one level after that but delusions keep them from accessing that level and becoming self-aware. In short people are sentient automatons being fed nerve impulses and manipulated through Pavlovian psychology of fear, desire and baits while breeding them through eugenics. There is a lot to the world, there are a lot of complex, refined things but this is the bottom line truth of this country.

Shrine Flush

Castles in the air. Someone looks up and Urvashi is dropped for the sage doing tapsaya from the castles in the air. The sage opens his eyes, Urvashi wears a perfume, roses, jasmine and all the good things, a mishti doi galaxy flows from Urvashi's consciousness to the sage's. A love like honey, thick, viscous, and unlike honey vicious. Bajirao has been having a hard time with his mastani. Megalomania has no cure and the sage ever since the honey pot left him dejected, has been trying to save scorpions but that's the deal about sages and scorpions, the sage will try to save scorpions and the scorpions would sting him, everyone is a slave of their nature. One realises that there was never a Bajirao, because if he was there wouldn't have been castles in the air and they wouldn't be dropping femme fatales for noir detectives who play by own rules after getting disillusioned by the laws and rules of the world. A cynical detective who plays by his own rules still plays by the law and rules of the world and it is because cynicism is a disappointed idealism and everyone is a slave of their nature. What is the difference between a whore and a shrine? Both are pimped for a moment or two of peace, that's the similarity, there is no difference; both smell good. What if your village is ravaged and razed to the ground, what would you do? Would you plan on taking a revenge? Or would you cultivate your own garden knowing that it's time too is coming. Bottle gourds from your garden, ladies finger, brinjal, lemon and all the other things taste great and you have a timer in your heart knowing the soon your kitchen garden too would be razed to the ground just like your village was. You meet a rape victim and tell her "God does everything for a reason". That's more than enough of a consolation. In an ancient civilization that's enough compassion. You see a landfill and the vultures over it. Wrong. The vultures are extinct and Zarathushtra is sad. Those are something else, eagles, kites, crows, something else. The cynical noir detective would say that the world is a landfill and we are the garbage as the predators circles over us in the sky. From where? Castles in the air.

Shitshow Dandiya

There are some things that sound totally batshit crazy and so does the person who talks about them but they need to be written down even if the person who writes these things sounds totally batshit. The deep structure of this nation can be primarily divided into three layers, the top in which those live who live there, the middle composed of criminally insane but quite sane to know what they are doing just at a lesser scale picked from lower classes so that they have ingrained jealousy and hatred for those who are better and better off than them each one of them being a potential genocidal rapist and the bottom layer which is composed of common people. The chief unit of deep "administration", if we can even call it that because there is not much administration involved except elevating the privileged based on some arbitrary rules and oppression and impunity for the rest of the people which strikes them as fate or God's will, is family. Family is the unit that is manipulated and where divide and rule does its real work and not everyone is aware of these designs so the divide and rule works making the individuals in the family weaker and more dispossessed than they were before. These motherfuckers are always on offensive despite having absolute control and with people who are oblivious to their existence. At this point of time these motherfuckers are making people sick and selling them medicines, making people lazy and making them order through quick commerce and food delivery apps, making people dumb and selling them AI. I have seen the needless torture that is inflicted on people and how they are made dispossessed and I have seen how the very core of this land is rape. There is nothing that can be done about it. People who come to know the actual reality unfortunately still have to procreate because, well, the family wants them to procreate. It is essentially slavery perpetuated by technofeudalism just at a level where it looks like fate and the fate of people for the most part is not authentic. Beneath the layer of culture religion and spirituality its tribalism and rape. I write this shit down because I like to give people diagnoses of their suffering, that if shit gets real for them, they know that what happened to them and that it was not their fault and I decided to do this because I know the kind of infinite torture, and for no reason at all, can be inflicted on people and especially the people who are not prepared, who are good and who have no resources, mental, physical, spiritual and intellectual, to save them. The unfortunate part of it all is not that those who perpetuate this are evil, they are in fact absolutely evil, and entitled but that they are extremely incompetent. God is nowhere in the picture except as a prop while the Government does the kind of administration and welfare it does.

EIC

Colonization whether it be of a country or person or intimate life of a person works by invalidating the history. Personal colonization works by invalidating a person's lived life, experiences and past. Such people go around seeking validation from others because they are not aware of substance in their own lives and a lot of people are prevented from cultivating substance in their lives so that they can be made dispossessed and can be stripped of agency by imvoking pervious lack of substance and agency. The British colonised India not only by having gunpowder and canons but also by showing friendliness and then occupying territories by invoking arbitrary rules pulled straight out of their assholes and gullible Indians fell for it. It's the same now it's just that oligarchs are the new British, the seat of colonisation are the bodies and minds of people who are, depending on the level of their privilege, denied their own authentic experiences and meaning is drained from their lives. These things are not a big deal it's just that for acting on this things and enforcing these things on totally helpless people who are oblivious to these designs and just want to live their lives with their family one has to be demonic level of evil. If one realises that there life has been colonised what can be done is the question here. There is not much that can be done except trying, and it takes a lot of refined effort, to salvage what remains of their autonomy and try to cultivate substance in their lives depending on their inclination. Prioritisation is of key importance and the bottom line prioritisation is money, family, work and your arts and skill and alignment with nature. Being updated on current affairs of prime importance because what colonizes lives of people depends on ignorance and lack of knowledge and awareness of people and the more the ignorance and lack of knowledge and awareness more is are the chances of being a victim of predation because setup in this country is quite direct. Being aware doesn't really save you from your fate, but knowing what is happening to you at least gives you peace and closure about your fate.

Shore

A lot of times in my writing I deal with bottom lines. It's because bottom lines matter to me. I think about where you would reach in this country if you are a believer of minding your own business, doing your job honestly and diligently and taking care of your family. The truth is you'll reach nowhere. I don't like not being sure and I prefer surety of doom over unsure future. The problem in this nation is if you are a good person you'll always be unsure of your life of your future but sometimes you end up seeing the invisible system and it is where surety of doom comes in picture. Once the unknown has made sense, all the anxiety goes away. You realise God doesn't really exists, at least not of the kind we grew up believing in. If at all God exists, He or She is passive and evil is active and you have to derive your own strength from the passive God through your faith like drawing water from a well. In a political sense, you realise that this country doesn't exist and government is just an illusion and just an arm of the kleptocratic technofeudal oligarchs and it has to keep doing the bare minimum to keep the illusion. You realise that it's zero sum game in which if you are not a part of the system you lose everything and the one those who run the system gain everything. That this country is not a democracy but a technofeudal combination of numerous principalities where you carry the hierarchy of your principality wherever you go in the nation or the world. You, as you navigate the reality of this nation with people having different levels of knowledge and awareness, realise that those who are in power would do anything to retain their power and life of common people doesn't really matter, in fact they are actively preyed on from a level where most people think God resides. The machinery is shapeshifting in nature so everyone makes out or are given different reasons for their suffering, the origin of suffering might be local or can be relegated to diffrent part of the nation or the world and walks with the person and victim blaming, blame shifting and credit stealing are rampant. When one realises these things only the most authentic mode of being remains, things that can't be trademarked, nature and the night sky. In the past decade I ended up realising that what actually rules this country is not only predatory and entitled but also embarrassingly incompetent. This is the bottom line and once this is known what remains is intimately holding on to your real faith and having fun.

Beyond Good and Evil

If you read Nietzsche you will be inclined to believe that there is nothing like good and evil but fortunately or unfortunately there is. The world is run on principles and it is run on principles because the ones in power want it to run on principles so that more capable people can't overthrow them. These individuals who are above the glass ceiling, it is for them good and evil doesn't matter with one caveat, until there is the threat of their one's own life and property. These individuals can only reject the binary if good and evil because they can afford to otherwise society, cultures and the world needs to define what is good and what is evil. Evil exists, I have seen pure evil in the eyes and externally it just looks like that normal rickshawala or conductor or some corporate employee or any kind of everyman and it is because of existence of pure evil, existence of pure goodness becomes impossible. The dictum is "no rest for the wicked" but it can be translated to no rest for the good. Because evil doesn't suffer their restlessness or anguish but tranfers it to the most helpless and weak individual it can find and this shit is cyclical because by doing so evil feels power and becomes more evil, it's like drug addiction. My theory is that either the world is run by people for whom good and evil doesn't matter, or by extremely evil individuals who employ demonic individuals for crowd control. Evil can become predatory but it seldom becomes sick because it has found a way to channelize its anguish and this anguish arises from definition of good and evil in the world and the society and they cross the threshold between good and evil so often and so much that they become predatory and habituated of the high that they get by oppressing the good and helpless and of course the lower form of evil or criminals are also jealous of goodness because a good man resisted what they couldn't. When you live in a high castle, you are far removed from good and evil, you do what you please and the arrangement is such that the levels below the high castle have to kill each other to climb up the social ladder which in fact in present social scenario is also a myth. Only individuals who have enough dirt on them so that the plug can be pulled on them at anytime climb up the social ladder. The rest are dispensable resources and addicted so misery of the helpless.