Bodhi Tree

It's important to feel safe. My childhood felt safe because of my grandfather and my adulthood is without personal insecurities. Not everyone feels this safety and security. This is the important part. I have been extremely lucky to gaze into the actual soul of this nation, and while what I write might look paranoid or even crazy to the naive and uninitiated my goal is just bring awareness and leave a record of what I saw. The actual soul of this nation is rape, and this realisation arrives when all the illusions are lifted. Rape is the sociopolitical core of this land from where everything else emanates. The main reason I write on this topic is because I ended up realising that this shit is centralised and existence can end up getting totalising. Rape is a centralised feature and if you identify it sociopolitical, financial, bureaucratic and religious walls start closing in to crush you. I mean what kind of asshole wouldn't do at least something when they realise that rape is a centralised feature and absolute core of the land they used to think of as a civilization. If the rape is the base of existence one can logically conclude that those who control existence at the core are habitual rapists employing more rapists, and of course these rapists would grow old. The truth is that the younger generations of this nation now don't grow old, they regress, and 40 year old men now play videogames instead of contributing to nation building which is absolutely right because there is no nation left to build. Young men are made to regress into their childhoods and unprivileged have their wills broken. There is a line from the song "Gand mein danda" from the band Bodhi Tree, "gaon mein sabun bech raha hai, jhuth hai uska hasna", and this happens only when one's ambitions are broken and they end up doing something that they think is beneath them and there are two reasons behind this, one that there is no dignity in honest labour and dignity of even honest labour is stratified and two this country takes sadistic pleasure in breaking wills of people and making them do things they consider beneath them through existential blackmail. Existence can get totalising if you have a bad luck but this totalisation when it happens gives you a peek into the core, which is rape, and once the core is realised life becomes extremely easy because nothing can get worse than this of course one can't off themselves because they love their family. Above the core of rape there is the financial layer which is composed of debt traps, usury, extortion and pimping and middlemanship. The ones who do real work in this nation suffer tremendously while the pimps do all the business. My grandfather raised me to believe in Indian civilization, believe in Shivaji, Prithviraj Chauhan and Maharana Pratap but after witnessing the core of this civilization I personally reject any such civilization whose core is rape. While the cultures collpase into dogmatic hyperrealities and families and individuals become islands everyone is forced to live through a personalised existential blackmail consuming media which suddenly became a medium of gaslighting once the walls starts closing in. The best part is when I realised that there is regional hegemony within the nation itself, if someone rich doesn't like your face, your family's, community's and culture's history will change in real time retrospectively. Interpretation of religious scriptures and even religious scriptures would change at the whims of burger eating, coke drinking and Sopranos watching motherfuckers. Once one sees this happening and accepts rape as the base reality of this land one steps into absolute freedom. The bottom line is this, zero percent autonomy and more than hundred percent accountability and responsibility for one's thoughts, speech and actions for the majority while they are deluded and their wills broken will no scope for individuality and no space for a soul within them while they become a drone in the setup production, consumption and extraction as love acts as a leash and an existential blackmail.

Kachra Peti

It is important to be able to imagine different worlds. Books and comics books give people that. Fantasy and superhero movies show you the worlds that exist in their universe and this applies to comic books too but books allow you to imagine worlds. Those who read Harry Potter or Lord of The Rings before watching the movies made their own conceptions of their worlds. When you watch an MCU or DCU movie and see superheroes travelling in space or using advanced technology you see a kind of freedom that is not available to those who watch family and social dramas. Family and social dramas are just expression of psychological design while fantasy opens doors to a whole different kind of freedom. In fantasy magic is possible, scientific advances are possible. When you see the Avengers travelling to the past, you think how time travel can be possible. You imagine the technology of the space crafts that travel in MCU and DCU. As time passed I realised, for me at least, that only superhero fiction and fantasy along with American professional wrestling and nature and wildlife documentaries are actual entertainment, after I ended up realising the extent of social and political control in this nation and through extrapolation world I realised that stories based on relationships and social causes are useless and after I realised how many people are stopped from achieving their potential, and that their souls are actively broken, I realised stories about individual achievements are useless. In the end it is all about politics, economics and structural privilege. And so all that remains for a person is fiction, fantasy and nature. The unfortunate part is that in the nation people's imagination is also actively capped and while external efforts are not made to improve the reality as the reality remains riddled of corruption, exploitation, filth, civic neglect and crime they are forced to accept this reality as the absolute reality while the privileged live in their own material and psychological bubbles immune to civic problems. The deteriorating reality however is then taken as absolute reality for the common people, as their culture degrades and family disintegrates, for discrimination and prevention of social mobility. 

For Goody Two Shoes

I end up writing for young good boys once in a while because distraction are many. Life is unpredictable for even those who understand the game so young boys must know the trick to understand the reality of the situation in this nation. Family comes first all the time. From teenage sex and love occupy a lot of unsaid bandwidth for boys. The advice is this, deeply respect the feminine but respect women according to the person they are. The deep structure of this nation wants good boys to treat women as a prize, which they definitely aren't they are human just like you. The deep unsaid practical politicosocioeconomic arrangement is this, and it is generalised and not absolutely accurate but good enough to get a general idea, after the family value system of this nation collapsed and even before that, good men are made to think women as prize while the privileged use women, except the women of their own families, as fleshlights. In this scenario, the pareto's principle loosely applies, 20 percent privileged and opportunists, excuse my French and being so direct, fuck 80 percent of women from lower classes, middle classes and upper classes who after being used as fleshlights go on to marry the goody two shoes ready to take care of them for whole of their life and this arrangement is a loose design but it is a design. While people think of Bihar as a site of "Pakadua Vivah", the privileged while treating daughters of others as fleshlights, marry their own daughters in an unannounced "pakadua" manner and that means the man they choose must be exclusive to their daughter. We see variation of this loose arrangement along with other natural permutations and combinations in the society. The deal is to opt out of the game. People say sex doesn't matter which is my personal opinion as a physician too but it does, because whole political and social structures and intelligence establishments are based on sex. Women cheat as much as men, it's just that they don't get caught. Do not play the game unless you find true love which is as rare as a unicorn in today's society, but I can assure you that it exists it's just that conditions for it to exist have been made impossible. My suggestion if there is longing for a mate is to have muses and fictional characters written by men because women if they write female characters, unless they are very understanding, write with contempt towards patriarchy which is understandable. Get out of the game. Get in the nature, develop hobbies and jack off once in a while without feeling guilty about it. Also to remember that the condition of lower class women is absolutely terrible in this nation and they are exploited at every level which of course includes sexual exploitation and so you should, according to the situation, treat them with utmost love and respect.

Practical Wisdom for Bharat Mata

I write for good people, people who just want to do their jobs and live in peace although peace is not an option in the country we live in. What rules this country has learnt it's extractive exploitation from the British and bureaucracy from Russia, the art of doing nothing while keeping the pretense of doing everything. My dream is a good man realises this needless suffering, does his job, earns his money and comes home and spend time with his family. For good men family is all that matters. When I was younger, I had a hard time saying no to people until I realised that exploitation of goodness and humility is a centralised feature of this nation and after that I haven't had any hard time saying no to people. The setup is this, absolutely criminal assholes are protected and good men have to save their own ass. It would be hard to accept for naive people but I have seen the system closely and I have realised that this is by design and this shit is a centralised. The trick is that if you are employed by another entity do the bare minimum that keeps you in the job and focus on your family, if you are doing your own thing put your efforts. This is basic behind the facade of nation building, when the assholes whose jobs are to build the nation aren't doing so and have sold it, what can common person do. Post early 2010s, consequences for helping someone are severe and so neither help unless you know it is transactional nor ask for help as it can be used as favours that can be exploited. The state we live in is that those who wear the helmet and put trash in the bin are going to be punished for doing so and this statement is deeper than what it seems to be. The most important thing here is to not to lose your inherent goodness just know that you are following the deep constitution of this country. Spend the time you save by cutting on useless bullshit to grow your soul. It is the deep constitution to throw another person under the bus for progressing but a good men can avoid it as long as he can and if he has to do it he must know why he had to do it. 

Country Club

Here is an interactive philosophical question: what if what one has thought of as authoritarianism is perpetuated on them an absolutely lowly and inferior individuals. I don't really believe in superiority or inferiority of people but some things I really consider inferior and I think of individuals who do that beneath me, like rape, pedophilia, extortion, predation of the sick, the handicapped the helpless and innocents. My crossing paths with Purvanchal deep state made my sorry ass realise that not only these things exist but are rampant in this country just that they are kept hidden from the narrative and victims are silenced either by intimidation or blackmail or by gaslighting and deluding them and that not only these things are rampant while common people are deprived of normal romantic intimacy, there are levels to assholes involved in these things just just like a PUBG player ranking or levels of stars of a police officer and have no misconceptions, these things happen from the place where most people think God resides. I had the intellectual resources to analyse it, although it sounds totally paranoid but unfortunately it is not and if your Instagram algorithm is not just food videos, you might be getting the glimpses of the real India that was hidden from most of the eyes before the internet. India, as the deep state made itself visible to me I realised, was never democratic, whether it be Congress or BJP, it's just that the authoritarianism is invisible and soft and so much that it decides what you would wear, how you'd behave, what you'd eat, unless it is the time for authoritarianism to get hard. The individuals who perpetuate this authoritarianism think of people as insects, and even the lowest ones of them and life as dispensable and at most people as stereotypes of their culture and region. They know every thing about you and have all the tools to actually know you but they aren't really interested in knowing you. This deep administration is primarily motivated by two things voyeurism and jealously, because the functionaries are employed from the lower classes with rape, money and invasive access to people's lives as incentives and they have inherent contempt for people mostly a projection of their own psychological issue and so the deep state of this country weaponises the criminality and psychiatric conditions of its functionaries against the common people. I used to call myself a debauch for drinking beer occasionally jacking off in early 2010s but then I realised that debauchery has levels and I was actually less than a teletubby in front of the lowest of these motherfuckers and most baffling and terrifying thing is that life of the most innocent and helpless person is accessible to these motherfuckers. It baffled me, as much as I have seen it, that there is no mechanism of cultural preservation, those who are exploiting the people are themselves incharge of the culture. My personalised totalitarianism when I realised that it is perpetuated by Individuals who are inferior to me and have no business with good or bad, all my life's suffering became redundant and meaningless. When individuals who inflict suffering and police people are criminal, life as well as suffering has no meaning. Only difference is that I have realised it and a lot of others haven't and some boomers still wallow in their suffering with drinks and ghazals. 

Nishtha

There are worlds in the world, diffrent worlds. You see a person and think why he or she is like this? But have you ever considered a possibility that maybe they are what they are because for them access to all other worlds except their own world has been foreclosed? I like to keep it real. I like to keep it natural, like Bear Grylls. While others can choose to live in a Suraj Barjatya or Karan Johar hyperreality, I like to keep it Anurag Kashyap. It is because I have witnessed that the core of this nation is Anurag Kashyap and the core never changed, it's just that a lot of people never get to feel it and never getting to feel it is different that it not existing as the core. So, I keep alternating between my two chosen worlds, Bear Grylls and Anurag Kashyap and while I play the game of Suraj Barjatya with with my family and community and enter the MCU and DCU once in a while, I have no delusions about the reality of the matter. A large population of this country has its possibilities and futures foreclosed. Have you ever considered that kids getting salt and rice in midday meals in government primary schools might be prepared for a life as lower level functionaries for sex and drug trafficking? Or maybe because they must be semi-literate farm workers or construction workers? The government schools have portraits of Mahatma Gandhi and Subhash Chandra Bose. Zero percent kids from government schools go to IITs and if they do, it's possibility that they are plants, and roughly calculating ten percent to ITIs and bunch of them go to blue collar jobs, but the carrot of better future always hangs. They are never told that their fates are sealed and that's still okay, the real issue is that the cushion of culture and family have been completely destroyed so that they have nothing to fall back to. Traditions are dogma now, culture is dogma now and religion is superstition. The state of freedom of speech in this nation is that if someone speaks the truth consequences, although clandestine, are quick but a tanrik will tell you the method of how to do vashikaran of your crush through your farts. If you see modern Hinduism and notice it, it's mostly about saving one's life and getting wealth. It's all Hinduism is all about. What about faith, and love of God? Vedic Hinduism if you have read Vedas is materialistic, it was about power and blessings of God about pleasing Gods, but it had a civilizational scale, they actually believed in their Gods and did sacrifices to them and those were days of empires so defeating enemies through the blessings of their Gods was important. Yajnas were important. Materialism doesn't mean the lack of faith. Materialism without faith however means corruption. And my belief is that if spirituality and medicine of a nation are corrupt then there is no scope left for it. 

Disco Dandiya

I regularly advocate for people to embrace journal writing. It is essential in this sociopolitical economy but what you write in it shouldn't be about other people but about your thoughts, feelings and conflicts. It is important to resolve your emotional and psychological conflicts through journaling, whether it is about your own bodily image, your self-image or problems you have with yourself because in the current political scenario if you have problems with yourself you are surely going to be exploited and at a deeper level. It's what Bertrand Russel said, "The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, and wiser people so full of doubts." The problem is that the the world will always remain so, and this because absolutely evil assholes employ these fools and fanatics to keep their ACs on and to retain their right to rape anyone they choose. This is the deeper setting of existence and unfortunately it can't be negotiated with. The best one can do is to clearly know what they want and how they want to live and whether it is possible and sustainable in the environment they live in. The state of law in this country is that it poses to be for the common people but it actually serves the criminals so one has to be mindful of it and try, if possible, to stay as far away from law as possible while following it if you are good person. If you come to know as much as I do through my experiences, you'd realise that this country actually only exist on paper. Your existence can be reduced to your identity markers like your caste, religion, culture, region and things like that but you have to be sure that your actual identity markers is your family and if you are really pushing it, your community and nothing else. If your hometown can be snatched from you, it never existed in the first place and this is true for mostly everything that can be snatched from you. The external administration of this country is mainly about land and property related issues and the internal "administration" sees every other thing and that includes manipulation of relationships and social engineering of families and is populated with habitual rapists picked from lower classes so that they have contempt for the people and families they are employed on. You have to realise that actual cultures and indigenous religion have collpased and what exists is just a hyperreality and what actually remains is simply earning money and taking care of your family and to try to have fun while doing so. This may sound paranoid but unfortunately it is the base truth and when the layers of illusion peel off this is where you'd reach.