Assurances

There are some things that people require assurances for. The tumultuous political times we live in they become even more important. The first assurance is that beneath all the rubble of politics, society and relationships, your real self exists and you can identify it through your preferences, in music, in sports, in culture, in literature and the kind of people you like, it's a good start and then you can find yourself by asking questions to yourself. The politics of today thrives on keeping people deluded, by making them eat green chutney and red chutney with samosas to make their fate better the truth however is that fate is pre-decided as well as real-time and the real-time only aids in the pre-decided fate for the most. I have known what dispossession is, despite having everything just based on caprices what I later ended up realising, incompetent assholes and my goal is spending quality time on earth but then quality time means different things for everyone for me the best definition of quality time is from my childhood, reading a comic book in scorching summer in front of a desert cooler. I have no hopes about this nation if it even exists, and it's not personal, it is because I have seen the background retardation in full display and making people dispossessed is a standard mechanism in the background so that they have no fallbacks so that they are spiritual and cultural orphans. I have also realised that there is no solution to this problem except having fun in the present believing in the God that is inside you and being capable of differentiating the God that is inside you with the socio-politics that is inside you. It's a hard task with this differentiation but once achieved life becomes incredibly peaceful. What awaits the majority in the future is inescapable slavery and the only remedy for it is to enjoy every present moment, not that the slavery doesn't exist in the present it's just that people will begin realising that what they thought of as fate, is actually slavery. That they are sick because they have to buy medicines, that they are tired because they have to order from food delivery apps and quick commerce apps. That the only bond that ultimately matters is their family. This realisation is inevitable because the apparatus which sustains delusions in this country is jealous of the happiness of people and doesn't dispense them happy delusions and people when not happy tend to find reasons for their unhappiness which would lead them to realise their slavery. The second assurance is that love exists, you know it exists in family but it also exists between a man and a woman, true love which is spiritual though it is almost impossible in current times and the politics interferes in it but, and it would seem like from a novel of Stephanie Meyer, the love where a man and woman imprint on each other's souls  exists. I have seen the machinery, which poses as a laundry in which you have to be washed but the truth is the dirt itself is created by it and if you survive the so-called washing you would realise that at its base it's a machinery that manufactures dispossession and deprivation. The only God that is in the picture is that inside you which, again, you have to learn to separate from the socio-politics inside you. Love for most is out of question because what we live in is essentially a eugenic breeding program for most but to know that it exists is to know it all. 

Customised Emergencies

It's funny how in 2011-12 I wanted to be a physician-writer and now I write regularly though the thing that is different is that I wanted to be a fiction writer and now majorly write non-fiction and a lot of it political. One of the reasons I do political writing is because I have seen hell, and I was prepared to deal with it, but I shudder to think what a totally uneducated and helpless man or woman would do when they are thrown into hell for no reason which happens regularly and at a huge scale in this nation, and especially to innocent people. I have seen a sort of what I can only define as spiritual parasitism by absolutely bottom of the barrel scumbags who I can only equate with what America says Nazis from Nazi Germany were. That's America's narrative however, every country has its own breed of Nazis and people like to simplify things so Nazis become villains in comics and movies while their equivalents, or maybe even worse, still continue to function all throughout the world. The issue with suffering and its infliction of suffering which can also be termed as torture is that like all things it tends to infinity. Domination seeks absolute control which is okay, but what is not okay is when the dominant lose their sense of sane judgement. I have seen absolute misuse of power which makes me think that every one who is in power in this nation absolutely misuses it which is obviously not true at the visible plane because this country is populated with a lot of good people who believe in doing their jobs diligently, however as far as the deep state of this nation go I think absolute misuse of power is an apt phrase. The best part of the arrangement is that a person besides you might be in absolute depths of hell but you won't be able to know about and that's where the quote: "Be kind to everyone you meet; you never know what they're going through" comes from. The most shocking thing that I ended up realising in the past decade about this nation is that the civilization this nation boasts of is a facade and I am old enough to remember the time when it was not, at least not as completely as it is now. I wanted to write a novel in 2011 which I still might end up writing just for the kicks of it but now I know that it doesn't matter because this nation in the past twenty years has managed to do what hundreds of years of invasions failed to do, draining meaning out of people's lives. 

Krantikari Circus

I live my life according to the meme of "modern problems require modern solutions" and this is because I have realised that this what the lives of the majority of people in this country is, a meme. When I was younger I believed in the philosophy of being comfortable with whatever life throws at you, it is later that I realised that it is not life that throws things at me and most people. I'm not a rebel, the most rebellious that I could be was sublimating my rebellion in the mosh pit of a metal concert. Though I am Subhas Chandra Bose, Bhagat Singh, Chandrashekhar Azad is kind of a rebel but that kind of rebellion slash revolution only works when one is being ruled by external forces. What is present today in India is much worse than being ruled by oppressive outsiders. The state of unfreedom in today's times can be customised for different people and life is like a VR headset with everyone tripping on their own life as the main character. Shit has been especially tragic for me as I was a happy go lucky, conscientious guy with belief in a greater purpose who ultimately realised that the only true greater purpose is sex and money. I have seen the time of extreme chronic burnout and at that time I had invented "the philosophy of the dog", living like a dog, eating, roaming around, sleeping and one fine day getting run over by a car. It helped me for a couple of years during my burnout phase. I have seen isolation, and at that time I developed "the last man on earth philosophy" where one lives life as if he is the last man on the earth and there is no one except flora and fauna and it went well. While these two philosophies that I utilised at particular phases of my life still work in the background I realised that as humans, as social animals, we can't really negotiate with the socio-political system because society and politics are in our assholes, and those who are enlightened or at least sociopolitically awake, not woke as that word now has been co-opted, know that this is quite literally true. I loved India, because I grew up watching "mile sur mera tumhara" but after I became mature I found rape to be its base reality which was still fine until I realised that this base reality is centrally propagated and this meant that I had to rebel even on the expense of seeming crazy. This also means all the drama of Satyanarayana Katha, Char Dham and shit like that, in which I believed in majorly because pious people who still exist in this shithole of a country believe in them, is fake. I ended up realising that for some people there is no option but rebellion even if they are not rebels at heart because walls close in so much that they are forced to rebel, or worse while the walls crush them even their screams of pain are branded as rebellion. I, however, ended up realising that India as a country won't survive an external onslaught because it is ruled by an inferior race of people, though I also realised that that onslaught will never arrive as the rulers have already sold the country and its people to external forces. The illusion however persists and people tripping on the VR headsets of their lives with them as the main character will defend the illusion with their lives. I have already grieved for my culture and my civilization, all that remains, and that's not compulsory, is my personal retribution which is hard to come by when every possibility is already mapped. 

Mafia Mundeer

I write a lot of political stuff on this blog because I believe in two basic things for people, dignity and happiness, I do not even believe in money for people, because a happy person can do well even in a hand to mouth situation if they are mentally and physically healthy. My dream for this country was a delivery driver making his deliveries coming home laying down in front of his desert cooler and reading comics. This is structurally impossible because of the post liberalisation designing of lower classes as hells. If you want to understand this i would recommend watching The Platform and Snowpiercer both of which are available on Netflix. I repeatedly say that this country at the deepest level is run by a criminal syndicate which also doubles as a providence and this becomes visible not only in the centralised corruption but also the existence of mafia in every domain. There is a mafia even in the domain of research just as it is in the domain of education, the coaching centres so it suffices to say that the majority of research that gets published in this country is actually hogwash. If you read this blog of mine it would seem to you that my views are totalising but it is only because I ended up realising that whatever happens in this country is centralised, it just doesn't look like it because the population of this country is vast. Whatever runs this country revels in stratification. Here is an example: there is tier 3 MD, there is a tier 2 MD and then their is a tier 1 MD. In tier 4 there are no MDs and I ended up realising that it is not because tier 4 places do not have infrastructure, it is because the lives of people in tier 4 places is not important. It is to be noted that only tier 1 and sometimes tier 2 MD can save your life. One has to realise that at all times a person in this country deals with two realities, one their actual reality and the second reality the reality of the deep state of this country which is intimate and already has ideas about your social and financial progress, and in case of place of my origin, Purvanchal, behaves like your father but thinks of you as a disposable animal. I did not start writing about politics until and unless I witnessed the deep state speaking for the government and the religion, though I had realised by then that government is just its arm and religion its tool. My goal for writing what I write is bringing awareness as the fates of the majority of people are not only pre-decided but also sealed and are also manipulated in real-time. I am a man of medicine so I know that diagnosis is half the cure even if cure is not possible. This country has collapsed from within and so has the civilization of this country while the external drama goes on and this is what happens when thoroughly incompetent individuals are playing a zero sum game. I have had an experience of a decade with the deep entity of this nation and i realised that these motherfuckers don't even have the idea of what they are doing to people themselves, it's basically indicscriminate rape and murder at an invisible plane at this point and throw it in the spectacles that you see news and memes about. What I have seen would be surprising if you think in civilizational terms like I did growing up, but wouldn't be if you have seen the real India growing up which again I have. One is kind of prepared for the fact that the big daddies  are criminal which is funny and still being criminal  despite having absolute power tells a lot about one's abilities, competence and nature; boomer uncles write about broken roads to Hindi newspapers which maintain this standard Hindi tone writing about Kejriwal and Virat Kohli, while being a part of this exploitation ring,  though nothing quite prepares you for the fact that God is a mafia. 

DJ and DJ

While a lot of my writing might seem paranoid it is not actually. I am a calm individual who was anxious as a school and college guy but mostly related to studies. There is a reason for why I write what I write, one because I have the capability to analyze things and two, while I considered keeping my mouth shut and minding my own business like the boomers do, I ended up realising that the motherfuckers employed by those who actually rule this country, and the keyword is actually, are doing anything to anyone and it's getting clearer day by day, thanks to cheap internet data, that neither this country has an intelligence establishment nor the Pradhan Sevak is in actual control. I have written repeatedly that this is not a BJP vs Congress issue, what rules this country is permanent and so are the criminals employed by it for crowd control. I have seen things and I realised that dignity is structurally lacking in this country because as I repeat often to stress it, the base reality of this country, which I have been lucky to see and see which crushed all the idealism that I inherited from my grandfather. You want to know the real tragic part? Those who rule this nation do not understand genuine respect, I ended up realising that they don't even have the concept of it and it is how I realised that these motherfuckers aren't old money or royals or individuals with a lineage, these scum only understand respect and extracted out of fear and while one can take respect extracted out of fear as absolute administrative optimisation after my observations in the past decade I realise that it is not the case. Since these motherfuckers do not have a lineage they are jealous of people who do have it and so covert genocide of families and individuals goes on which in newspapers becomes just another tragedy we read about. And this would explain the readiness of these bastards to adopt western culture while making the indigenous cultures so unlivable, mongrel and ugly, example: DJs playing vulgar songs in events like Saraswati Puja, and making western lifestyle as something to aspire to which act as carrot for the lower classes that they will, given the setting of this nation, never achieve. There is a total absence of dignity for people and I also know the strata till where, and it would till the upper middle class though it is mostly felt by the lower class and then the lower class and criminality of the ones criminal among it is used to control the mobility of the middle classes. Am I thinking too much? Imagine the administrative genius involved in this, there is none. I was there when there used to be Durga Puja pandals in my hometown and they used to mean something. I was there when weddings of people used to mean something, I was there when marriage and people's words used to mean something. When I returned back to Purvanchal I realised that the very cultural machine has corrupted to the point of no return, the culture of my beautiful land is controlled by mafia and I ended up realising that these motherfuckers do not even have the intelligence to understand it and this mafia is unfortunately also the intelligence and providence of the land and it's directly connected to the religion and the base reality as I ended up realising is rape so dignity for people, especially up till the upper middle class is out of questions and anyway bastards going to Taj don't give a fuck about dignity while they discuss five year plans and logistics of this nation. You have to realise that there is no recovery of this nation from what has happened, it has already been sold and not in 2014 since quite a long back, 2014 was only the time when the grip was tightened on those who carried the real culture within them. 

Civilizational Toilet

Gender roles given to men and women by nature are different, men primarily drift towards being providers and women towards being nurturers but it's not written in stone and they could be groomed or conditioned into playing either roles but they would in most cases if they are not embittered by their life's circumstances would gravitate towards their natural roles within conditioned roles, this however doesn't apply to individuals who are outright evil, whether men or women because they have already transgressed their natural roles and gone towards materialism and pleasure primarily through pain of others though they can exhibit natural tendencies related to their genders in their close relationships. I have suffered the deep politics of India and with all the hyperreality of a civilizational country and a democracy at the deepest level this country operates by keeping people hungry and especially for the things they actually need to survive or thrive. With my rendezvous with the deep politics of this country I ended up realising that the so-called upper class of this country, and by upper class I don't mean individuals who have money I mean the class that has achieved such an ultimate upper hand in the power dynamic that they are untouchable, employs enforcers from the lower class to keep families deprived. These individuals function as spiritual parasites for individuals and families, thought police as well as enforcers of persecution and torture mechanisms. Of course these lower class enforcers have betrayed their social strata, region, culture for privileges which includes the privilege of being able to exercise mindless impunity on people without any consequences, privilege of being able to rape people and decide their lives and they are fine with it despite because one, they are validated by the so-called highest strata and second because  no one with a functioning moral or ethical framework would agree to inflict suffering on totally innocent people. I do not know about the world but in India the base engine of deep "administration" is rape and baseless hatred which counts on people being thankful for their life even if their lives are pathetic and victim blamed them even when the problems are structural and/or inflicted by the deep structure. The past decade made me realise while the drama of democracy goes on, at the deepest level this country is run by a criminal syndicate with its basics being money, sex and contacts which expresses as exploitation, rape and gang loyalty especially within castes. One has to understand that in this kind of setting, God and religion are redundant only caveat being that one can be persecuted for not following religion, or worse, not following it correctly with the definition of "correct" being variable and changing at the whims of power, also a person without faith is easier to victim blame if they are not clear about the ideologies that sustain them. When people are just units in a machine which becomes individually interested only when it has to persecute or torture someone, and this presecution or torture as I realised in the past decade too can be based on nothing but whims and baseless hatred of the powerful, then things like gender roles stop to matter and for the dispossessed it becomes all about doing what they can, playing whatever role they can play to survive. 

Temple Run

The informal governance of this country, as I have seen in the past decade, operates by giving its executive branch stability and freedom to exercise anarchic impunity on people. The design of the deep state of this country is, if you can imagine it, a smaller triangle in a larger triangle where the apex of both of the triangles overlap but the base falls short and the base of the smaller triangle operates as a panopticon for the remaining space and base of the larger triangle. In short, the larger triangle is the democratic nation and the smaller triangle is a clandestine communist state within it with feudal, corporate and mafia components and operates like providence when in reality it is a criminal syndicate with religion as the primary instrument of control mostly working through victim blaming through karma or sin. India once had an actual religion, actual faith which was not opiate of the masses. I, personally, only have faith in South Indian temples because they are the only surviving relics of faith from the past at least in architecture and aura. North Indian temples were either destroyed by invaders or got destroyed from within by corruption, not that I believe that South Indian temples are perfect but at least there is continuity of architecture and aura. I went to Haridwar and I saw the temple priest talking about Uttar Pradesh politics. I went to Kashi Vishwanath and saw a daroga totally ignoring line of devotees and getting in the temple, not for security but for darshan. Then there is separate VIP darshans from North to South. Even God prioritizes the privileged. In the mid 2010s I got exposed to a reality of this country that made temples redundant for me though I still retain my faith privately and visit temples as a familial obligation. It is in 2010s I realised that those who truly rule this country think of religion as opiate of masses and it means those who control people through religion themselves do not believe in God, like I said a communist state. Faith is important and what is God if not truth and love. Although I believe in my Gods, the Mother Goddesses, what I ended up seeing in the 2010s proved to me that the kind of God the majority grew up believing in doesn’t exists though omniscience and to a fair degree omnipotence (I know it’s ironical) exists but it is not God but the panopticon. The God inside me gives me the strength to survive my tribulations which the deep politics of this land inflicts on me and that confirmed to me that my God, although impotent at physical plane, empowers me at the spiritual plane. Why I don’t believe in the God about whom I was told in my childhood, because I have seen the impunity, cruelty and exploitation which the God I believed in wouldn’t have tolerated. The existence of individuals who do crowd control for the deep state of this country and how mindlessly the engineer people’s lives is evidence enough that the God I believed in in my childhood doesn’t exist. But Ram does, and so does Krishna, as archetypes and these archetypes take the shape of faith one has. I believe in the idealism of Ram and teaching of Krishna, but we have come way further from them as a nation and this is what happens when a criminal syndicate rules a nation.