God is alive and kickin

This is how i pay for being true, honest and kind. This is how the design is. I had well understood this as my suffering had begun. We carry our individual hell with us, at all times, and our paradise too. The satan walks with us, and the angel too, but for me, the God is dead.

We have individual rules for our hell. One hell can be different than other, by having more complex and difficult rules. Achieving some heavens can be so difficult that they may be almost impossible.
Failed to help someone even when you wanted to? You are going to burn in hell forever. In another hell it is not even an offence, even snatching food from a hungry person is not an offence there, may be it is the pre-requisite for the heavens.

When i failed to understand the world, biology became my bible. And Nature, my god. I am the son of Nature, the Natural Jesus or NJ who gets on the cross all the time for other beings. And yes, Jesus loves you.

I am just fed up of the facade of our dear society, but then it is necessary to keep people deluded because not everyone is sensible, and not every one is Jesus.

I have had my experiences with God, before i started believing in Nature like a pagan. God basically helps those who help themselves, and he helped me too, till the time i was able to help myself, then i suffered some problem and couldn’t help myself. My bad. I have nothing against God. The day i realized that God is dead, everything became God for me. And specially the nature.

God is the rising sun, the falling leave from the tree, the blooming flower, the drops of rains in the monsoon, the innocent smile of a child, the chivalry of a man, the beauty of a woman. Shiva, Parvati, Ganesha, Allah, Jesus, million other Gods of Hinduism, the pagan gods, the Greek gods, the Norse gods, the chinese, japanese, i am free to believe in all of them. I can scream and tell the deluded ones, that their god is dead, but mine is and are alive and kickin’.