Elephant Shake

Since I have seen the activity of existential framing of totally helpless and innocent individuals, who do not have the power and means to protect themselves in this nation for nothing but sadistic delight of individuals who have all the means to entertain themselves by other means I decided to solve this issue once and for all from my side. This is the least and most that I can do, solving the issue from my side. No matter what the delusions in people's mind say, life in this country is real-time and that means one event decides another event and while it sounds like quite a natural process it happens at a deeper level. The arrangement is one sided and this means once power has decided the kind of person you are, which according to my experiences it is totally not capable of judging properly, your consciousness would go through what the power thinks you are and not what you actually are. At its base is capital and it's rabid and if you end up seeing its rabidness there is a chance that you will be automatically branded a communist whether or not you are. Believing in Sarve Bhavantu Sukhinah is not supposed to be communism and it's also taught in school but unfortunately if your life ends up turning into an episode from Motorcycle Diaries, there is not much you can do. At the top there are Monsoon Wedding people playing financial tennis in this pyramid scheme of a nation and at the bottom there are the daily hand to mouth and a desi pouch people. The job of the middle class or even upper middle class is to get humiliated from the Monsoon Wedding people and in the Modi era now even by daily hand to mouth and desi pouch people. At the base lies the trinity of extreme entitlement, incompetence and impunity only visible through the lives and actions of common people. Bait is of a better future that never arrives. For common people as the money increases so does the CFL light induced depression in their homes. I would recommend yellow lights for more serotonin. In the past decade I ended up realising how blatantly religion is the opiate of masses in this country and this happened when I was a believer of, not in God, but in the religious traditions and culture. While lives of common people are in hands of self-proclaimed devtas whose movies begin exactly from where they get their eyes on you and then they fill in the blanks with their prejudices and biases. When life is real-time and your consciousness can be made to experience a life that is totally not yours in an obscured political manner the question of karma and dharma end. It's just capital and unfortunately of the comprador kind which shoots down people with authentic nationalism on sight although covertly. I have been extremely lucky to have seen what happens when absolute power and extreme incompetence and entitlement meet and the result is Jaspal Bhatti's Flop Show with better aesthetics and architecture and Ram Gopal Varma movie wearing the clothes of a combination of a Suraj Barjatya and Karan Johar movie. A common man cannot prevent his downfall, he just needs to be aware what hit him and he needs to be aware that it's not God.

Surabhi

In the past fifteen years I have been able to deeply understand what goes on behind the scene in this nation. Understanding it was a mind boggling experience and I ended up realising that incompetence and chaos is from the source and this source invades the private spheres of the people. I ended up realising that there is no seperate machine in this land to take care of the cultures of the land. The ones running this nation didn't even bother to do that. The feudal machinery of the hinterlands and the industrial-corporate machinery of the big towns is what handles the culture and they have zero incentives to sustain it. Culture only survives in small pockets of men and women who have gotten enlightened about the reality who live and practice their versions of it. Impunity is directly from the place where a common person thinks God exists. This entity is not God, but it controls the access to God. I ended up realising that if access to God can be controlled that God isn't really a real God. I have complex opinions about God and religion and I keep my faith personal and seperate from the political idea of God. I have faith at a personal level but politically I am an atheist. To me something has been feeling terribly off since the early 2010s. The condition of the nation as visible in the newspapers, news and social media, doesn't seem to be improving, there is synthetic paneer in the markets, the air is polluted, the main rivers of the country are polluted, forests are being cut down and trust between people is at an all time low. The most baffling thing that ended up realising that the Thars and Scorpio that a common family man avoids on the roads is within the minds of people. The Thar and Scorpio impunity controls the minds of majority of the people. Where does the Thar and Scorpio impunity comes from. It comes from massive egos and refusal to adapt to something better, assertion of self, and domination of the person in front of you while not acknowledging them at all. The Thars and Scorpios wouldn't have been in the minds until someone had greenlit it, because it is how it works as a deep policy decision, it's a systemic thing. Same thing applies on eugenics, breeding people like dogs focusing only on their physical attributes. Someone is fucking up terribly and this fucking up is being experienced by people as their reality, especially by people who have the hold on their reality during the times of mindlessly pumped propaganda, dogmas and superstitions through social and mainstream media. There was a standard in language, the All India Radio standard, that standard has plummeted terribly in the past decade. People have stopped wanting to be better and more refined and have started asserting themselves and as I realised that there are two reasons for it, one that systemic employment of assholes who are into domination over people and who are too narcissistic to want to become better and the sufferers who assert their culture and linguistics in response refinement of which has already been deleted in the past twenty years. I have no idea what the culture ministry of this nation does if it can't understand cultures, let alone preserve them, in their true form.

Write Concept Asterisk

Why do I write? This is a question that I repeatedly ask myself. There are reasons why I write. One being, ever since my late teens I wanted to write or one can even say wanted to be a writer. I started with writing slice of life blog posts and short stories and poems. Writing has its consequences and very political consequences which can either make you tough or break you. Ernest Hemingway complained to people close to him that he was being spied on by the FBI. And sure enough FBI maintained a file. American intelligence agencies also maintained a file on Carl Sagan, the space scientist. In India, writing has sociopolitical consequences because if you write and which many writers who write with good intent and not with the intent of sycophancy or propaganda come to know through their experiences. I was actively writing slice of life, short stories and poetry back in the day, and by 2013 the consequences were ready for me though I realised that I was already in the soup so I could easily walk through consequences of writing which ended up becoming very personal and affected my career too. In the process I ended up realising that this country doesn't have a proper functioning intelligence apparatus, the real intelligence apparatus is the deep state which is also the providence and is of a feudal nature in the hinterlands and techbro advanced in the metros and big cities. I got to know that casteism is actively pumped in this country from the source. They never did away with the British divide and rule but doubled down on it. And this a kind of rape gang casteism which somatised, and that means it can't be negotiated with because it is in the bones of the actors. I got to look into the base of Purvanchal, and it's a village rapist setup which also works as the intelligence, divide and rule machinery, conspiracy engine and unfortunately also the providence. It's how I came to know that rape and religion in Purvanchal are related, that they come from the same source. The village rapist setup is the same in which they didn't let lower class individuals drink water from the well or enter a temple and it's covered with hyperreal made up culture of constructed shudh Hindi which doesn't really convey refined emotions as literary Hindi does. The respect that I had for Varanasi, after realisation of this setup, totally crashed. It is ultimately about power, money, resources and right over women's bodies, it's essentially a harem. As far as my experience with Purvanchal goes, people's lives are essentially dictated to them and the winners, who are essentially selected and not by their own merits, get the gala prize to go and live in some foreign country. Living in a foreign country is the ultimate gift. All of this is lower two-thirds of the iceberg this country is. It had a great run from the 90s till the late 2000s and truth had to come out, and for the enlightened, it is coming out on social media in different forms. Why do I write? Earlier I wanted to write a bunch of novels, pulp literary novels, because I was into pop culture. Now, pop culture as well as writing has collpased, and after AI even more so. Novels, comics, these things have become almost redundant in a hypersaturated world, plus it's an unannounced curfew so even when you read novels or comics you have no one to discuss it with, you might have to launch an instagram profile or a YouTube channel to discuss it with people and find a like minded audience and in this country you can only do that if you are privileged. The best part is that even hand to mouth is getting increasingly difficult in this country and you might have to cut someone's throat for even basic hand to mouth. Why do I write? At present I write to help people diagnose their suffering despite knowing that there is no cure. Diagnosis relieves even if there is no cure. Also, to name the mechanisms, the means to which have been and are being continuous deleted from the indigenous languages. Choosing between Congress and BJP is essentially choosing between the devil and satan. 

Strangelove

There are simple things and there are complex things. Not every particular thing can be generalized and not every general thing can be particularized. I write a lot of generalised stuff but it is only so because I have seen the bottom line, the base. When you connect the base of a vessel that contains shit to a water pipe, the water at top will have shit in it too. I have seen the state of hypervigilance, and as far as paranoia goes my take is that paranoia in most cases is accurate, the mind assumes or sees a threat and becomes paranoid it's only that the cause judged by it for the paranoia can be wrong and is wrong in most cases. Not everyone is equipped to find out the accurate cause of paranoia. In the times we live in, I have personally stopped thinking about people, unless and until it's of direct consequence or related to survival, it's a practice like meditation. You stop thinking about people and yet if they come into the mind it means there is political interference. One more practice that I do is told in many meditation traditions, not thinking and watching the thoughts in your mind. Meditation was very popular before social media and surveillance capitalism established their foothold in this country and then people stopped finding it useful and the practice faded from the popular narrative in the past ten years. Another practice that I do is also done in progressive relaxation, watching the sensations in your body and individual body parts. Life is a lot about realationships, I have seen how relationships can be sabotaged, how social engineering can be done. When I ended up seeing into the soul of this nation I was baffled how inauthentic life was in this essentially third world country. If one can't even get an authentic life in a third world country, where can he get it. The answer is: nowhere. It's a panopticon setup essentially which can shapeshift into a prison, a torture chamber or a hunting ground and the worst part is that the entertainment which you but with your own money is not even as good as before. I mean it's not every day movies like Doomsday and Mummy 4 release, and since I realised history is a hogwash I am not interested in watching period pieces. I like reading books and it doesn't matter whether they are accurate or not, books give a person ideas and they contain vibes, I still remember vibes of individual comics I had during my childhood. This is the reason books are among the first things to be burnt during a conquest or a coup. There is also a better way to do away with books, saturate the ecosystem with bullshit media and make reading difficult or unpopular. When one sees the bottom line experience as totalised they realise that the freedom people feel is conditional and can deteriorate into a totalising experience any day. I have personally seen the absolute absence of God but faith should be retained and there are three reasons for it, one, to avoid persecution by being labelled as a heretic, two there actually exists an internal priciple that harmonizes the self and gives strength and three, a God that can be projected outwards gives a person focus. 

Pesto Sauce

Living authentically is important. I didn't give shit to these new age wisdom kind of things earlier, but then in 2013 I started to have the real taste of this nation. Spoiler alert: it's not Amul. I suffered mostly the whims, arrogance, entitlement and delusions of individuals I might not even know but unfortunately or fortunately I was equipped to make sense of things happening to me because I was preparing, due to scope of my job, to heal people, until I realised that healing is not really possible in this country. People are sick because they are supposed to be sick as it helps sell medicines and hospital beds. It's demonic necropolitics posing as a democracy at its finest. As a physician I don't meddle with cases that I can't handle though accidents and misjudgment are bound to happen but I have seen doctors at critical places not equipped, and I mean that at a personal level, to handle cases that come to them. I retrospected on my life and I realised I was in the soup since the start and it is my suffering that pushed me into being a physician ultimately leading me to realise that I live in a necropolitical kleptocratic decentralised oligarchy posing as a democracy and I absolutely had no business with knowing all this shit I just wanted to do my job peacefully. In the 90s retreat in your cocoon of safety was possible, now all the avenues have been closed and in the name of entertainment you have substandard hyperreal mafia shows or voyeuristic staged reality shows. These bastards copy the west but they can't because artists in the West are authentic artists as well as as authentic as people as their politics allows them to be. They have deleted refinement from the lower classes, rooted cultures, folk cultures and traditions and replaced them with dogmatic beliefs and superstitions. I have experienced it and so I know that it's absolute slavery coupled with focused exploitation. Like it happened to me, all avenues where I could express my authentic self, my real me had been blocked. Expression is not that important though, the problem began when others ideas of what and who I am were imposed upon me. I always wanted to be a writer, long before I knew the truth of existence and by the time I was capable writing as an art itself became redundant. The base engine of this nation is operated by extremely rapey, entitled and incompetent individuals and what they decide ends up becoming fate for the people. Just like in Jesus's time they don't know what they are doing, I mean they know what they doing as far as intent is concerned but they don't have the ability to understand the technicalities of means they are using to translate their intent into reality. The method used on me was suppressing my authenticity and imposing a made up personality which extremely disagreeable to me on me and I am not the kind of a guy who asserts himself I adapt according to the people in front of me but the beauty of the shithole that we live in is they don't bother about the amount of force that is used on people and this happens when the drama of democracy keeps going on. 

Train Crack

I have had extreme experiences in my life and I was amazed that what I witnessed happening was possible. I chase authenticity. I have seen illness, both objectively and subjectively. My job is to see illness. After sometime when you deeply understand theory of illness you realise that it's mainly getting weak enough to get affected by something more strong than you. Except of course infections that can't be negotiated with. Society has its disease and sometimes society itself is a disease. I think personally I am at a place where don't need to know more about the world. Anything I come to know will just be the missing pieces in jigsaw puzzle that the world or life is. I'm an idealistic person and I strive for my ideals and I have been able to achieve them. People generally end up achieving their ideals at my age and I did the same. Then there are people who are not idealistic and are materialists and they live in a hell that is continuous, hoard and if can't hoard, deprive others to have more than them. I am glad that since start I have had the habit of prioritising. I prioritise. I also have habit of making philosophies that I have follow. Codes that I try to live by. There are two philosophies: one is, one bag man, and that means extreme minimalism as a personal philosophy. This doesn't mean that I don't acquire things, it just means at the base I am a man who can live with one bag worth of things. There is another philosophy that I developed when life became extremely hard and that was The Philosophy of The Dog and this means you got to live life like a dog. Eat, sleep, wander and one fine day get run over by a vehicle. Getting run over is not mandatory. Philosophy of the Dog went through some tests and passed them. I believed in it, then I ended up thinking that humans are more complex than that but after I came to know about the deep politics that runs the world I realised that it is a perfectly okay philosophy for the times we live in because the time of making art, music and writing poetry or even making computer programs has passed. We live in times where we have to consume with our own money and get fat with whatever we are consuming so that we can be extracted or exploited for it and this shit is non-negotiable and the only difference is some people are aware of it and some are not. Just as there are infections of microorganisms, there are social infections too. You can contract them if you become visible to social pathogens and this is a thing that you can't really avoid. There is no cure, there is prophylaxis. Only thing that helps is awareness and education. You have to be aware of your self, your patterns and your actual leanings so that you can make out what is real you and what is not, inside you. There is a particular philosophy that I developed, which was being like a detachable component as far as society is concerned. Being able to function on my own and be part of a larger whole when required. Functioning on one's own requires a degree of autonomy which is a privilege in today's times and the irony is that those who have the autonomy are too privileged to exercise it. The interference of politics in personal especially in the country we live in makes one promptly realise that they are ruled by extremely incompetent and cruel individuals and that's why the ability to adapt to situation is essentiaI though I know that it would end of me if I have to forgo my principles but it's the individual who decides what they want to die for. I know the things that I want to spend my time and life on and this is a good thing especially in a setting of chaos and especially in a setting where people are running around purposelessly. As far as I have experienced, and it's not the general truth but my own experience, that one creates their purpose themselves, and I used to believe in a higher purpose of existence but ended up realising that there isn't because it is blocked by the politics that runs the world and if it can be done, for me at least, higher purposes cease to exist and anyway we are born with an inbuilt purpose, our and our families survival. It's just that the politics pervading our life decides whether we are in survival mode or in the thriving mode. The evidences of thriving art, culture, literature and poetry are now being done by machines so all that remains is to enjoy whatever vocation one has chosen for self and the job that brings food on the table while negotiating with non-negotiable social infections and the dealing with predators through awareness and continued education.

Thousand Cuts

It's about the contrast of what do you think the world is and what it turns out to be. This is a conversation that one ought to have with themselves. It's all about the contrast. High human capabilities and emotions do not thrive in a survivalist situation. And high human capabilities and emotions do not take birth when you try to nurture and grow them from a place of privilege. A compassionate and empathetic person place in a setting of survivalism is already living the worst hell possible. But it is not about him. It is about those who are doing the placing. It's all in the mind they say, and they are right, but but it is also embodied. Suffering, and any amount of mental suffering won't be that big of a suffering if it is not embodied. Someone weaponises your conscience, the limits of your conscience are the torture chamber you are in and will be tortured in that torture chamber and in this setting the individual with no conscience at all experiences radical freedom and hence if you talk about India, the better the person you are the more you suffer it is either this or you are always on your toes which again is a form of suffering. Places where intimate and elaborate political torture can be applied on whims and not even on actual reasons lose their legitimacy and legitimacy then only remains as forced control. That place is just functioning on might makes right. Here is an example, the newly famous influencers of social media going through humiliation rituals as they go through like their MMS clips going viral or they getting in some online arguments that blows up, a state that sets this up through deep state so that crowd keeps getting their circus of breads and circuses if revealed to be the state itself in front of the crowd the whole legitimacy of the state would become redundant. What is the deep state? And I know this answer in detail. Sex, rape, drugs, humiliation rituals, blackmail, extortion and all such things of this kind. Where this country has made itself illegitimate is that this deep state has access and control over a kindergarten boy or girl. You understand what this implies? The whole country is at its base a rape chamber. The best part is people only get circuses not because the state wants to keep them pacified through them it's because the ones organizing the circuses revel in the misery of those whose mms clip went viral, because everyone knows how hard, unless you are privileged, it is to earn bread in this country. I have seen cases where the whimsical recreational sadistic torture has evolved into state persecution. The implication of it is one single individual can weaponise the whole state machinery against people and rewrite their past and future. You know who can do that? God. Some depraved asshole out there is God. Anyone can be made dispossessed because the machinery for humiliation rituals and dispossession with its mechanisms already exists, you offend someone in power or as I have seen you don't even need to offend sometimes you are walking on the road and someone in power doesn't like your face and your whole family history, your whole life your future can be rewritten and when this can be done the promise of the state collpases and it just remains as a travesty. I have seen cultures getting weaponised. Personally if I talk about my culture the motherfuckers ruling it have weaponised what were the merits of my culture, they weaponised the authenticity of my beautiful beautiful culture and now my culture only remains as a fake hyperreality with machinery of divide and rule working overtime.