Dali and Kahlo's Centipede

How is it to deal with complexities? Complexities stop to matter once the basics turn out be extremely simple. Basics however simple must be meaningful and once meaning is drained out of them, the complexities stacked on them collapse like a house of cards. You open your eyes and see a rat race and then you find yourself in a cat and mouse game. Who is the cat and who is the mouse is the question. In the end it all ends up becoming Tom and Jerry with meaning drained out of it and the SpongeBob soaking all the meaning in his squarepants. A lot of basic idioms get tested. Like a pig dragging a man to the muck and while the man is hating the muck on his clothes and gets more muck on himself the more he moves the pig enjoys the wrestling. It feels bad to get betrayed by every institution but unfortunately every institution betrays everyone all the time and there is nothing special in it, it's just that people don't know. You however end up knowing one thing, that people aren't robots. They may end up losing depth, but losing depth doesn't mean the end of depth. The depth remains it's just that person operates at a surface level without seeing their true self and if luck permits, which is totally different from fate, one gets to have their long awaited rendezvous with their deeper self. Complexities collpase when the basics are not right. Humans are complex organisms and once it is decided that they are just automatons functioning on pleasure and pain, anomalies are bound to happen once in a while. And when the anomaly happens. House of Cards. The time is going to come when everyone wears Squarepants because Mini-mes are let loose on people, pigs whose only job is to drag people in the muck, wrestle them and enjoy that wrestling. The Mini-mes who snatch people's morsel of food earned from their own hard work from their mouths. Automatons wearing Squarepants everywhere snatching morsels of hard earned food from each other because their hard earned morsel was snatched by the Mini-mes and when they have time from all the snatching they might have a rendezvous with their deeper self. Squarepants might end up with platonic relationships and then the question will arise whether they deserve loving platonically and so the government appoints a committee to decide who deserves to love platonically and a fast track court is setup with evidences against the platonic rebels who refused to go in the depths of vagina and become pimps who naturally evolve, just like a Pokemon, into predators. A shape-shifting hierarchy becomes whatever the fast-track court wants it to be so the man wearing a blazer over is underpants looks at a judges and the judges are experts at seeing things that don't exists, they conjure evidences from thin air. Inkblot test is applied and so finely that Rorschach would be proud. Do people with childhood trauma fail the inkblot test or the ones who inflict childhood trauma do? That's a question for this year UPSC aspirants. God lays in his bed with the goddess massaging his feet munching on a pizza, ordering a ravioli and tiramisu from a food delivery app while an army of inkblot qualified police snatch the morsel from his mouth as Mahabali measures Kashmir to Kanyakumari in one step.

Black Text

One has to go through a kafkaesque nightmare to let the invisible bureaucracy make sense. The world keeps on folding over itself to make sure that there are no free lunches. In my village however, back in the day, there were free lunches. Free lunches are not always incentives, sometimes they are common courtesy and manners too. In the 90s there were bumper dhamakas from the wholesellers to retailers which have become rarer and rarer these days. Businesses have consolidated and no bumper dhamakas are a prime example of climbing up and pulling the ladder. The invisible bureaucracy suddenly start to make sense and then the kafkaesque nightmare loses its potency. The kafkaesque nightmare has to have some style to remain potent and when it fails to uphold the style, there goes all its ambition to become a nightmare. You start with the assumption that you are one of the one and half billion, and how can shit be all about you? Turns out shit is actually all about you. How could it be? Well it is how it is. You see the hyperstratification. People flee from their villages to the city to escape persecution, knowing little that the system walks with them. An intimate blackmail walks with them wherever they go. The village was a prison, the city was a prison, the country is a prison, the planet is a prison. The state of existence that one discovers after, well, coming face to face with reality can only be explained through gnosticism. It doesn't matter though as there is no philosophy except "keep on breathing as long as you can" required in a gulag. Can God be this cruel? Well, you did not complain when women were getting raped and children were getting kidnapped in the 90s? You were busy going to birthday parties and eating cake, mithai, samosa in that silver paper plate and cold drink in that plastic cup. You only came to know there is no order because you directly suffered that there is no order. You saw individuals inferior than you thinking of you as inferior, the only catch is that they want to achieve unachievable superiority over you but they can't because they are inferior to you and thus the unachievable superiority translates into infinite torture to your mind and body, thankfully not the soul because the soul recovers once the delusions are shed. A person who wouldn't sell his soul no matter what ends up retaining his soul as his mind and body get tortured, but in this process every scripture, every morality, every philosophy ends up falsifying itself, what remains in the end is ethological psychology, a Darwinian Pavlovian psychology. You always knew that Hitler if he had gotten into the art school he applied to wouldn't have killed so many people, but then Hitler ended up taking the blame for numerous other Hitlers behind him and in front of him. It's always a scenario of between a rock and hard place. People wouldn't have been talking of gnosticism if the right side had won. People talking of the Matrix are transformers now. Neurons grown in labs now power Artificial Intelligence and one would think where is ethics? There never was. It was just the illusion of ethics. God is the drug, because even after impossible sadism inflicted on body and mind, one ends up thinking what if there is a God? Here is the the thing, if there was a God, he would have intervened by now, unless he really enjoys rape. A person gets raped and their protest is neutralised by a clever argument. Well, it is this easy to neutralize protest of rape, just a clever argument, it doesn't even have to have a basis in truth. The final takeaway? Land and resources are acquired by war and wars are won by domination and once the war is won, this domination flows into the arteries of people. Power and domination then become the ultimate truth of civilization while one wears the blindfold of culture and civilization. I like to know the name of the poison being injected in me. It's all cyclical. Socrates knew it, Jesus knew it, any person sensitive enough to care about humanity knows it. It's Kaliyuga and it's forever. Satyuga is just first class, Kaliyuga is where all the happening thing is. It is here a man turns into a bug while the system sprays pesticide on it. Sometimes it's not that easy getting rid of bugs, especially in a rotten environment and especially when Satyuga has to come to Kaliyuga for catharsis. When Satyuga has to come to Kaliyuga for catharsis, it is here one realises that Kaliyuga is the ultimate truth and it is forever. The leather jacket hangs, and one has to pick it up. Farming was easy and it's nothing personal. The problem arises when farming gets personal. The rot is only manure. The leather jacket has been picked up. It was a long time coming. Some bugs are good, better than viruses at least. It's Mcafee time!

Old School

The Purvanchal deep state that is connected to deep state of this nation is a stool that rests on three legs, one, we will kill you; two, we will rape the women in your family and three, we will kill your family. The best part is that you have to do nothing to come under the radar, well, at least in my case I couldn't find anything out of the line except that I wrote poetry and blogs which might actually be out of the line because I have seen a BHU art professor going cray. Probably because she must have gone deeper into her field and tried to explore surrealism. In my life as I retrospect, I realise that it might be simple, local hate crime. Here is the deal about hate crimes in this country, while you try to live your life peacefully trying to earn enough to feed your family, someone hates you based on whims enough to destroy your family and rape the women in your family and possibility is you don't even know them. I just a few years back had no idea that pajeets are so daring. In some cases however hate crimes are committed and they get out of the hand and escalate so much that the State has to take care of it so one ends up realising that the State is just an extension of these criminal motherfuckers. Now let's talk about the three legged stool, one, we will kill you. This leg has no effect on someone who is not afraid of death. The second and third stool, we will rape the women in your family and we will kill your family are also useless because these bastards are already raping women in your family with the intent of rape and genociding totally innocent families just based on their whims. There is a particular conditioning of the individuals employed in this establishment, like they can destroy the whole world to fuck a women they have eyes on, that's the base intent and they enjoy raping the women of a person's family in front of them. It does sound very familiar even though none of us have actually seen it or had it happening to ourselves. I got acquainted to this arrangement in late 2010s and kept on getting acquainted to it more and more and since I was a firm believer in Indian civilization it was kind of heavy for me to finally reject it completely. It's not God. God was never in the picture. I have seen some personally tough times and it is during those times I came to know about non-existence of God and the power of faith both. Though I find it hilarious that individuals whom you don't even know hate you and, as I realised, for reasons that are not in you but in them. It's a simple case of jealousy and psychological projection. The best thing that I know that the big daddies who run Purvanchal and possibly Bihar too sell people from their region to get humiliated and exploited by Individuals of other regions. Democracy can go on forever if mafia dictatorship has the control of people's souls and fates. Guess it's time to order some cigarettes and chocolate from Blinkit.

ORS

It's just luck if one's life is uneventful but even if one is economically and financially not prepared for events, they must be mentally prepared. I have lived my life according to simple principles like "work hard, party hard" and "do your best and be ready for the worst" and so when the worst struck me I was prepared. It's ultimately all about perception and the attitude, how one sees their problems. The world we live in relies on false facts to propagate itself, facts that can't be denied or falsified but which are also not the truth. When sabotage gets intimate there is a lot of cherry picking and selective omissions and behind these lies an intent of domination. Rape is a form of domination. Domination occupies a lot of space in day to day living but people who are good and focused on their daily problems fail to see it. One of the forms of domination is dominance of narrative. This is the kind of dominance journalists and lawyers thrive on. Proving something that is not true, true. When a person has to be smeared or his character needs to be assassinated, one of the methods used is magnification of the his little faults which by the end up occupying whole of his personality. People end up seeing him for his one vice instead of noticing all the other good things in him. Shit can start with false accusations and the case can be closed through false claims, false evidences and the narrative satisfied through fallacies and sophistry. When a person is targeted his actions are stripped of context and his life is oversimplified like as if humans are simple and not multifaceted. The politics relies on search of faults in a person. When psychosocial existence is concerned there can be given a lot of analogies and metaphors regarding the events picked from one's life and as a person tries to defend himself with reasons and context a lot of counter arguments are given. Politics always wants to simplify people and in a lot of cases oversimplify them and this is done by stripping the contexts and nuance. Psychological domination thrives on multiple meanings, language is the most basic tool of dominance and when one is supposed to be dominated the worst meaning or context for a word is chosen from the multiple meanings of that word. The fun part arrives when these kind of things, these detailed conspiracies are hatched for people who just want to mind their business and do work although the truth is that an invasive machinery is always working to do these kind of things, to deprive people, to isolate them, to make them dispossessed. A lot of people's time gets wasted in clearing false accusations levelled on them, and bombarding false accusations is a great way of wasting people's time and keeping them busy so that they can't focus on growth. You are accused with the help of false facts and you can't disprove it despite knowing that it is not true. The truth is that all these activities are based on lies and people for the most part know the truth about themselves and the world subconsciously. It is important to know your truth and if you know your truth nothing else matters. 

Bodhi Tree

It's important to feel safe. My childhood felt safe because of my grandfather and my adulthood is without personal insecurities. Not everyone feels this safety and security. This is the important part. I have been extremely lucky to gaze into the actual soul of this nation, and while what I write might look paranoid or even crazy to the naive and uninitiated my goal is just bring awareness and leave a record of what I saw. The actual soul of this nation is rape, and this realisation arrives when all the illusions are lifted. Rape is the sociopolitical core of this land from where everything else emanates. The main reason I write on this topic is because I ended up realising that this shit is centralised and existence can end up getting totalising. Rape is a centralised feature and if you identify it sociopolitical, financial, bureaucratic and religious walls start closing in to crush you. I mean what kind of asshole wouldn't do at least something when they realise that rape is a centralised feature and absolute core of the land they used to think of as a civilization. If the rape is the base of existence one can logically conclude that those who control existence at the core are habitual rapists employing more rapists, and of course these rapists would grow old. The truth is that the younger generations of this nation now don't grow old, they regress, and 40 year old men now play videogames instead of contributing to nation building which is absolutely right because there is no nation left to build. Young men are made to regress into their childhoods and unprivileged have their wills broken. There is a line from the song "Gand mein danda" from the band Bodhi Tree, "gaon mein sabun bech raha hai, jhuth hai uska hasna", and this happens only when one's ambitions are broken and they end up doing something that they think is beneath them and there are two reasons behind this, one that there is no dignity in honest labour and dignity of even honest labour is stratified and two this country takes sadistic pleasure in breaking wills of people and making them do things they consider beneath them through existential blackmail. Existence can get totalising if you have a bad luck but this totalisation when it happens gives you a peek into the core, which is rape, and once the core is realised life becomes extremely easy because nothing can get worse than this of course one can't off themselves because they love their family. Above the core of rape there is the financial layer which is composed of debt traps, usury, extortion and pimping and middlemanship. The ones who do real work in this nation suffer tremendously while the pimps do all the business. My grandfather raised me to believe in Indian civilization, believe in Shivaji, Prithviraj Chauhan and Maharana Pratap but after witnessing the core of this civilization I personally reject any such civilization whose core is rape. While the cultures collpase into dogmatic hyperrealities and families and individuals become islands everyone is forced to live through a personalised existential blackmail consuming media which suddenly became a medium of gaslighting once the walls starts closing in. The best part is when I realised that there is regional hegemony within the nation itself, if someone rich doesn't like your face, your family's, community's and culture's history will change in real time retrospectively. Interpretation of religious scriptures and even religious scriptures would change at the whims of burger eating, coke drinking and Sopranos watching motherfuckers. Once one sees this happening and accepts rape as the base reality of this land one steps into absolute freedom. The bottom line is this, zero percent autonomy and more than hundred percent accountability and responsibility for one's thoughts, speech and actions for the majority while they are deluded and their wills broken will no scope for individuality and no space for a soul within them while they become a drone in the setup production, consumption and extraction as love acts as a leash and an existential blackmail.

Kachra Peti

It is important to be able to imagine different worlds. Books and comics books give people that. Fantasy and superhero movies show you the worlds that exist in their universe and this applies to comic books too but books allow you to imagine worlds. Those who read Harry Potter or Lord of The Rings before watching the movies made their own conceptions of their worlds. When you watch an MCU or DCU movie and see superheroes travelling in space or using advanced technology you see a kind of freedom that is not available to those who watch family and social dramas. Family and social dramas are just expression of psychological design while fantasy opens doors to a whole different kind of freedom. In fantasy magic is possible, scientific advances are possible. When you see the Avengers travelling to the past, you think how time travel can be possible. You imagine the technology of the space crafts that travel in MCU and DCU. As time passed I realised, for me at least, that only superhero fiction and fantasy along with American professional wrestling and nature and wildlife documentaries are actual entertainment, after I ended up realising the extent of social and political control in this nation and through extrapolation world I realised that stories based on relationships and social causes are useless and after I realised how many people are stopped from achieving their potential, and that their souls are actively broken, I realised stories about individual achievements are useless. In the end it is all about politics, economics and structural privilege. And so all that remains for a person is fiction, fantasy and nature. The unfortunate part is that in the nation people's imagination is also actively capped and while external efforts are not made to improve the reality as the reality remains riddled of corruption, exploitation, filth, civic neglect and crime they are forced to accept this reality as the absolute reality while the privileged live in their own material and psychological bubbles immune to civic problems. The deteriorating reality however is then taken as absolute reality for the common people, as their culture degrades and family disintegrates, for discrimination and prevention of social mobility. 

For Goody Two Shoes

I end up writing for young good boys once in a while because distraction are many. Life is unpredictable for even those who understand the game so young boys must know the trick to understand the reality of the situation in this nation. Family comes first all the time. From teenage sex and love occupy a lot of unsaid bandwidth for boys. The advice is this, deeply respect the feminine but respect women according to the person they are. The deep structure of this nation wants good boys to treat women as a prize, which they definitely aren't they are human just like you. The deep unsaid practical politicosocioeconomic arrangement is this, and it is generalised and not absolutely accurate but good enough to get a general idea, after the family value system of this nation collapsed and even before that, good men are made to think women as prize while the privileged use women, except the women of their own families, as fleshlights. In this scenario, the pareto's principle loosely applies, 20 percent privileged and opportunists, excuse my French and being so direct, fuck 80 percent of women from lower classes, middle classes and upper classes who after being used as fleshlights go on to marry the goody two shoes ready to take care of them for whole of their life and this arrangement is a loose design but it is a design. While people think of Bihar as a site of "Pakadua Vivah", the privileged while treating daughters of others as fleshlights, marry their own daughters in an unannounced "pakadua" manner and that means the man they choose must be exclusive to their daughter. We see variation of this loose arrangement along with other natural permutations and combinations in the society. The deal is to opt out of the game. People say sex doesn't matter which is my personal opinion as a physician too but it does, because whole political and social structures and intelligence establishments are based on sex. Women cheat as much as men, it's just that they don't get caught. Do not play the game unless you find true love which is as rare as a unicorn in today's society, but I can assure you that it exists it's just that conditions for it to exist have been made impossible. My suggestion if there is longing for a mate is to have muses and fictional characters written by men because women if they write female characters, unless they are very understanding, write with contempt towards patriarchy which is understandable. Get out of the game. Get in the nature, develop hobbies and jack off once in a while without feeling guilty about it. Also to remember that the condition of lower class women is absolutely terrible in this nation and they are exploited at every level which of course includes sexual exploitation and so you should, according to the situation, treat them with utmost love and respect.