Cancer causes smoking

I look at my fingers
And thank my cigarettes
It’s a condition called clubbing

I take deep breaths
Instead of shallow ones
Especially when i smoke

The tobacco stains
On my fingers
Are fossils

They are remnants
Of pain and those dark nights
When i used to drown in a sea of smoke

I smoke my worries away
Sitting in the balcony
Under the stars

I fill my lungs with tar
And invite cancer
Ironically my sun-sign