Wording feelings

Ultimately it is about you and your place in the universe. I handle my daily life like a normal person, and i am very much a normal person except that intense feeling of dissatisfaction with humanity. I like order but the disorder in the society troubles me. Yet, long back i had learnt that disorder is order and order is disorder. I try to keep myself in order inside and be a little disorderly outside to match the outside society. I see everyone running and pushing around for their needs and wait for my turn. After some time i too get involved into that same running and pushing though i am mostly in a habit of coming last in these endeavours. Knowledge to me is more important than money, position fame and sex. Love is an expression of a variety of other things so i don’t believe in it as the world does but i believe in loving because i actually think that love heals. Love is a creative force, as much as fear is destructive. The more i know the more i realize that the prophets of olden times were right. Still i don’t believe in strict definitions of right and wrong as the society believes in. I believe if the needs of everyone is taken care of, there would be peace; also a sense of responsibility is to be inculcated in people so that they themselves refrain from greed. It is so difficult that it almost looks impossible. I have practised it myself and then looked at the world and started living the same way as others. But i realize that it would leave no difference between me and others, so then again i decided to take only what i need for my goal and calling and refrain from excess. It is a whole different point that excess has different definitions for different people.

September 14, 2015